Maybe it’s a consequence of reading/watching too much sci fi, but I often think about what I would look like right now in an alternate universe. (Snickering is allowed here). It’s possible I wouldn’t have ever decided on nursing. I might be doing technical writing right now, or I might be in academia, writing some snooty thesis on Hamlet’s myopia as displayed by his last encounter with Ophelia. (That was actually a consideration of mine).
The more I blog, though, the happier I am that my writing isn’t for a magazine or a professor. Often, but not all the time, I think the purity of writing can be soiled by that. I want to be able to own my voice. It’s not perfect at all, but it’s mine to experiment with and play around with.
On the other hand, I think the important things always come back around. No matter where you travel or how far away you run, what you’re supposed to be doing will catch up with you. Sarah Dessen said this in The Truth About Forever, and I think a part of it rings true:
But if something was really important, fate made sure it somehow came back to you and gave you another chance… Events conspired to bring you back to where you’d been. It was what you did then that made all the difference: it was all about potential.
Antigone's Clamor 
Like you I feel I might be a child of too much sci-fi. I often wonder about choices made and not made and if in another universe or for that matter many universes I may have made many other choices. I am not sure what I may or may not have been but I feel that somehow this is where I am supposed to be and this is what I am supposed to be doing. I just seems right.
I often ponder my alternet self and how things may be turning out. Am I rich and famous in one reality or am I already dead in another? It all could hinge on one fated decision. I must resign myself to the fact that all of the choices I have made are the right ones for me in this universe. After all I think if we could skip from one universe to the next it might cancel out all of the me’s in existance/ Then what? These are just some of the things I think of in the wee hours of the morning when I am making the donuts in my Bakery. Just saying….
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It’s a good feeling when you’re in a specific place and know it’s where you’re supposed to be! Having a job where you have time to think a lot can really mess with you…I’ve got one of those, too. Thanks for commenting, Uncle!
What sci-fi do you like?
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I like authors Isaac Asimov, Ben Bova, John Saul, Gene Rodenberry and many more. I really like books that tacle the subject of time travel and paradoxes. I think the first book I read on time travel wasThe Time Machine. A classic to be sure! Things that always interested me were Asimovs Three Rules of Robotics, String theory, the Grandfather paradox, the possibility of life on other planets, worm holes and the paranormal.
I always loved Star Trek! I think Rodenberry’s view of what we as a race could become was prophetic! We as a race have so much potential and yet we are still in our savage infancy! I do see a glimmer of our sunrise in some of our actions but we have so far to go. Our greatest asset is our empathy!
I really liked the X-files and a show called Mellinium. Other shows like Sliders and Dr. Who, Primevil and newer ones like Eureka and Warehouse 13. Movies that always get me into a great set of mind are 2001 a Space Odessy, 2010 the sequel and Stargate the original movie. The Exorsist always scared the (hell) out of me!
There are so many more (out-there) things that interest me but I think that would take some time to cover. Perhaps someday we can sit around the diningroom table with a good cup of coffee and discuss all that Is, may be, and hopefully will be! So shale we say” ‘Till then”.
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You have given me more books to add to my list!! I’ve watched most of those TV shows, though. They’re good! Have you ever read Ender’s Game? That was an interesting sci-fi book!
Come visit sometime when you can!! There’s always room.
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I loved “The Time Traveller’s Wife”. I read the book, first, and when I saw the movie, surprisingly, it ran pretty true to the book. Very interesting mind that came up with that story!!
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I’ll have to check it out! Thanks for the recommendation!
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“Often, but not all the time, I think the purity of writing can be soiled by that.” That is so true. There is something that gets lost when we write to another’s criteria. It can be fun and it can cause us to flex under utilized muscles, but there is something so liberating about writing for oneself.
I think there is much to be said for owning one’s voice. I’ve come to really like the sound of yours. I keep finding myself wondering . . . “How did she become so wise?”
Such a thoughful, reflective post. Well done.
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Blogging can give us our voice in its purest form! Excepting the subscriber-obsessed. 🙂
Thank you! I love yours as well. There’s a lot of optimism in it, which is refreshing!
Thank you for commenting 🙂
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I like te quote about fate catching up with you. Reminds me of The Doctor and Donna, and how they continued to run into each other, and that the world would have been drastically different otherwise.
Dang. I’m referencing WHO know. xD
Great post, though! I agree with the writing for someone else. That’s part of the reason why I don’t think I’d want to write movie reviews for a living. ;P
And, like Miss D, I rather like your voice too. 🙂
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Ooooh, I didn’t even think about “Turn Left”. That could be a whole other post. Maybe that’s why the episode resonates with me so much.
Ha, well, movie reviews can be pretty subjective. You write relatively objective ones, though!
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You should do it! Write a post about the episode! It’s too great to pass up and you know it!
Haha, I try to be as objective as possible. I just don’t see myself doing that all day everyday. That’s too much and it would cease to be fun.
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I’ll stick that on my word document of ideas, although I’d have to see it again before writing about it.
That would totally suck the fun out of watching movies! Forget the experience…it’s like you could never see the movie with fresh, excited eyes!
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Love this post!
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Glad you liked it! Thanks for commenting. 🙂
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beautiful and i totally love the quote.inspiring.i know one two things that i think will come back again to seek my attention.lovely.
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Glad you liked it! It’s from The Truth About Forever, which is such a good book!
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