I had a different post all ready to go last night, but I just felt like I had to write something else. It’s funny. When I started this blog, I didn’t tell anyone about it, except for a few close friends who were already blogging. Journaling wasn’t cutting it for me, and I felt like I had to tell the world how I was feeling, even if it wouldn’t listen. Kind of like in ‘Monte Carlo’, where they climb up to Machu Picchu and scream as loud as they can. I hadn’t screamed, and I needed to desperately.
Now, I continue to write and only occasionally feel the need to scream. Today’s original post, now coming tomorrow, is not a screaming post; it’s more like one I have to spit out. That can wait. I write now because I have to, not because I have to tell the world how I feel, but because I have to get all of these words and thoughts out of me.
Maybe it was a little megalomaniac of me, but I thought that I was the only one who blogged therapeutically. It just didn’t occur to me that there were others who did the same. Roll your eyes if you’d like. Last night, while I was browsing under the ‘Life’ tag on WordPress, I saw that there were so, so many people like me, just needing to get the words out and to tell the world how they felt. It makes you wonder how much is building up in some people, just waiting for a chance to break free and get out. I doubt most people use blogging as their outlet.
I used to write blog-type notes on Facebook, but it always spurred discussion that I didn’t want. (More on my experiences with Facebook here). It wasn’t as personal as I had intended, and I was on display in an unpleasant way. Facebook is funny like that, because its purpose appears to morph and change frequently. I have trouble keeping up. It’s not a forum, and it’s not a blog. Both times I’ve made the mistake of treating it as such. In a way, Facebook is true to its name: it’s our own personal little yearbook, where we show snippets of ourselves, but we never get too in-depth.
Thanks to the plethora of social media available, I’ve been able to compartmentalize my internet activity nicely. Finally, I feel like I’ve got a grip on what’s going on at these different sites and that maybe I finally understand a little bit more about the constantly evolving web-etiquette. And I think I’ve found a little peace with all of the writing and self-expression I feel compelled to do.
Anonymous said:
Lara, I couldn’t agree more. Oftentimes, on FB, I post as a reflection of a thought, a feeling or emotion, or to prompt healthy, forward-moving discussion. My attempts have, on a few occasions, gone horribly awry. FB and its purpose is far too diverse, and hence, I, too, cannot use it for the purposes for which I have endeavored.
Too, include me in the ones you have found that need a forum of expression, even if the expression isn’t necessarily understood, or written with great depth and meaning. (I am not saying that what you write isn’t deep or meaningful 🙂 There is a song called, “Breathe” by Anna Nalick and I love this one line, “If I get it all down on paper, it’s no longer inside of me, threatening the life it belongs to.” In a sentence, “I so get that.”
Rock on with Antigone’s Clamor….I shall remain a loyal reader.
All my love.
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Antigone's Clamor said:
Oh, I think you’re pretty deep and meaningful! And I love the stuff you post–keep it up, and don’t let others discourage you. It’s not offensive. Thank you for reading and supporting me! 🙂
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annmariedwyer said:
I fall prey to this often, and it is why my material is spread all over the web. Not because I am to schizophrenic (well, at least not everyday) to stick to one spot, but because I need different outlets for what I have to say. My big example is my HubPages. Those are the things which needed to come out, but not necessarily on FB or my blog.
Keep clearing the mind clutter!
Red.
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Antigone's Clamor said:
Glad you understand the need to spread things out, too! Thanks for stopping by. 🙂
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imperfectous said:
thank you for echoing my thoughts so well and beautifully its amazing. even the feelings on face book. i found out i just wanted a place i cold write what i thought without the need for people to read and judge and analyze. i think all bloggers have a common ground, which is they simply want to write and that’s why when blogger stops by another blogger to comment,it’s usually more like they understand and appreciate it’s your opinion.simple.lovely.
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Antigone's Clamor said:
Aw, thank you! One of the best parts about blogging is the affirmation you receive from other bloggers.
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